Motherhood an act of service

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As a new mom I have plenty of joys and fears. There is so much information around, so many contradicting opinions about upbringing your child. Everyone seems to have a very strong opinion about what to do or not, what’s right or wrong. To vaccinate – no to vaccinate. To feed on demand – to feed on schedule. To attend every cry – to let your baby cry. To breast feed – to bottle feed. The list is endless! And as a new mom if you listen to every single opinion it can be quite overwhelming. I guess all we can do is to listen to our own inner voice as there is no right or wrong way of doing these things. I guess you just have to pick the method that suits you and mirrors your belief system.

When I was in school we were told that we start to raise our children from the moment we are born. This didn’t make much sense when I was a little girl but now it makes all sense. As a parent, every experience in my life, my values, how I treat myself and others come out of who I am and is this that is truly passed on to our children. It’s not so much what we tell them or even how we behave but who we are that they learn from. What we don’t own in ourselves we project onto our children by telling them how to behave in ways that we don’t behave ourselves. That’s why I encourage myself to keep looking deep within and see what unhealthy unconscious patrons I hold so that I can become conscious of them and heal them so that they don’t need to play out in my parenting.

Before I conceived my little angel, myself and my husband made the conscious decisions that we wanted to have a child. As soon as we made that decision I went through a very intense 2 year healing experience where I had to strip myself off old family patterns, limiting beliefs and irrational fears. Before I started this journey I hadn’t fully realized how fearful I was of being a mother. I consciously decided I didn’t want to pass on to my child any unresolved emotional issues I had so I went through a very intense journey of looking within. It was painful at times as I had to heal my relationship with my own mother and father. I had a very strong co-dependent relationship with my mom that was depriving me from being a woman. That little girl needed to grow up as a girl cannot be a mother. I had to heal the emotions of an unsupportive and absent father. Because of my upbringing I was afraid that I wouldn’t get the financial support from my husband, if we were married and both of us had decided to have this child our finances needed to come together. I didn’t want to feel like I was getting charity as I was focusing my energy on raising our child. For me to voice this to him was one of the most empowering conversations we ever had. I was showing him my vulnerability and in that moment I didn’t feel alone anymore. In that moment I had changed my family patron. I really knew that we were doing this together.

Before I got pregnant I always thought that I would be creating this little one but while pregnant I realized that this being was creating itself, I was the nurturing host. My job was to create a safe and harmonious environment for him to thrive in. I also learned that this child didn’t belong to me, he wasn’t my property. I was meant to protect, shelter and nurture him so that he could flourish and express his full potential. It’s not my job to teach him who he is as he is the only one that can do that but to teach him in the best of my abilities the ways of this world.

Also I had to take into consideration that my husband was also part of this process. I was holding the umbilical cord that brings in nourishment helping the physical body of the baby to grow and develop and my husband was holding an emotional  and spiritual space for the baby and I. Because of this sacred space that he was creating I didn’t have any cravings or emotional ups and downs. I felt held and safe. I see the man’s role in the whole process as lot more important than people give it credit for. Woman holds space for the development of matter, and Man holds space and anchors spirit. Together in Sacred Union they create a new life.

After many years working with clients I was very aware of the effects of birth trauma ( c-section, long labour, complications, etc) when left unresolved they can create feelings of guilt, inferiority or even worthiness and complications to conceive.

I wanted to give my child the gift of an empowering birth experience. I realized that this was his birth and I was facilitating this for him. I wanted him to be in his power. We had planned a home birth. We did hypnobirthing to create the right mind set. We watched videos of natural water births. We healed our family wounds. We had a plan and we were ready!

But things didn’t go to plan. We were two weeks late and we had to go to hospital and be induced. Even thou this wasn’t “our plan” we surrendered to it and still gave our son and empowering birth.

At this point, for me, it wasn’t anymore about the scenario but about my connection with my baby. It was my commitment to facilitate his birthing experience in a loving and safe way.

We had a natural birth without pain relieve and it was wonderful to feel him entering this world. When he was placed on my chest it was a magical moment. The three of us were family, linked forever.

Three months on I experience motherhood as an act of service. Giving myself unconditionally to the little one. My heart is open and my soul is full of joy! I’m so grateful you’ve chosen me as your mom, I’m committed to loving you!

Every night before we go to sleep I whisper in my little ones ears:

I’m grateful for your presence and the gifts that you bare.

It’s not my intention to break your spirit I wish to help you to embrace it.

I’m grateful for choosing me as your mother, your guide, your companion.

I’m grateful for the way that your eyes look into mine, straight into my soul, allowing me to see who I am.

I wish to help you to be strong in yourself, to be fully who you are so that you never have to apologise for being you.

It’s not my job to teach you to be who you are but to create a safe environment so that you can shine in your own light.

Maria Jesus Marin Lopez is a Breakthrough Parenting teacher and therapist. She is passionate about helping people create empowered relationships. www.empowered-relationships.com

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About mjsen

Maria Jesus originally from Madrid, Spain, came over to Ireland in 1995 after finalizing her studies in Computer Programming. Started her training as a holistic therapist in 1997. Her own healing journey started exploring different Energy Therapies. She is a Shamanic Practitioner, Reiki Master, Integrated Energy Therapy Master-Instructor, Magnified Healing Teacher and Theta Healing Practitioner.. Once she got full understanding of energy she felt the need to understand the body so she studied different types of massage. She trained in Thailand at ITM massage school in Chiang Mai, where she received her Teaching Diploma in Thai Massage. She also learnt Thai Foot Reflexology, Oil massage, Thai Herbal Massage, Body and Facial Treatments. After understanding the relationship between energy and body she felt the need to understand the mind, she studied Psycotherapy. And after that she felt she could really offer a holistic aproach to her clients. Mind, Body and Soul. She holds a Diploma and Advanced Diploma in Clinical Hypnotherapy - Psychotherapy and Life Coaching. She is also a Bach Flower Dance Teacher. Delfina Productions a theatre company which deals with Spiritual themes was formed by Maria Jesus after finalizing her Diploma in Theatre Studies. Aimed to raise spiritual awareness. With her knowledge of theatre and energy work she developed a workshop called “Creative Therapy—Heal your emotions through acting”, a powerful workshop were you allow yourself to express repressed emotions...
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